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It’s funny to think two years ago that we were as low as we are. Now look at us, still low, but thriving. We’re doing better. We’ve learnt about our system. We found ways to cope. It’s amazing, I mean we have this wonderful partner system who loves us deeply. It’s perfect. They’re so darling. Ah we want them forever wrapped in our arms! It’s perfect having them near us, they mean the world. It’d be terrible if someone took them away from us. My name is Emerson, I’m 15 and a deceptive alter. I know no moral compass, I make my rules and lie through everything.

Oh boy. I don’t know if anyone even sees these. They’re mainly for my own personal tracking. But if you’re triggered by talks of S/H, suicide, eating disorders or anything like that please stop reading. This is your only warning. So yesterday I relapsed in my Bulimia, which rolled to an anorexia relapse. I often purge in the shower and I’ve accidentally clogged the drain and boy am I terrified. But anyway. I had a 24 hour fast and dropped 7 kilos. I then hinged and the purged. But the thing is, I was clean for 10 months. Nine fucking months I managed to stay clean. I was so fucking proud of myself. For the record no o